I began this blog in search of new friends who, like me, were having a difficult time getting pregnant. Five years, 2 miscarriages, 4 failed IUI's, and a doctor who told us "It will never happen" later, we are the proud parents of TWO beautiful baby boys. We know that our prayers were answered by a loving Heavenly Father who made us wait longer than we ever expected. Now, looking back, I can finally thank Him for the heartache and appreciate the pain.
I'm continuing with 30 Days of Thanksgiving for Infertility...
When we were trying to get pregnant, it become very clear that we needed more than medical intervention. We were in need of a miracle. I'm thankful that the following bible verse explained how God utilizes miracles:
"I would seek unto God, and unto God
would I commit my cause:
Which doeth great things and unsearchable;
marvellous things without number:"
This verse gave me hope because I discovered that the Lord preforms miracles without number. I'm so thankful that He can never ever run out of miracles! I know that miracles happen differently for different people. But, I also know that all miracles are generous acts of God's mercy and grace toward us.
Speaking of miracles, I'm thankful that the Lord softened my hardened heart towards people who had what I wanted. I can remember feeling so bitter towards people who had young children. I was especially bitter towards women who were pregnant. I couldn't understand how "it" became so easy for some, while it was so difficult for others. God worked a miracle in my life as He removed this bitterness and replaced it with compassion and love. One day, it just didn't hurt as much. I stopped asking God, "Why me?" and started asking myself, "Why not me?"
Even though we needed more than medical intervention, I am thankful for the advancement of medicine. We were given the opportunity to undergo IUI's four different times. Although it did not work for us, I know people personally who have had success with IUI's. I am thankful for the medicine advancements and for Clomid and Fermera. I'm thankful for the injectable medicine Follistim and the HCG shot. I know that God has given doctors the wisdom to use these interventions to expedite the waiting processes, and more often than not, they are essential in helping women conceive, especially if there is a female factor (like it was for us).
Thank you to those of you who have stuck around for the past 18 days...