Thursday, April 15, 2010

Today's Appt

Today's appointment has finally come and gone. The past few days I've had so much anxiety. I couldn't wrap my head around that I am pregnant again...and I felt those feelings of insecurity and fear quickly taking control of my emotions.

As I was walking into my appointment, I could feel myself shaking--you know, the kind of fear that takes complete control of your body and there isn't anything you can do to stop it. It doesn't help that our dr. office's ultrasound tech has zero personality...I mean ZERO! It's fair to say that she isn't paid to be friendly, but when you can see that someone is overwhelmed with fear of the unknown, I would think it would be appropriate to smile and be friendly.

Never-the-less, as I am preparing to sit on the exam table, K sweetly comes over to take my hand as if to say, "Honey, everything will be okay. Whatever the outcome, we will get through this." I love him. He always seems to know exactly what I need, exactly when I need it.

I take a deep breath, close my eyes, and the ultrasound is under way when I hear K say, "There's its heartbeat." Praise God! I could breath a big sigh of legs were no longer shaking. I am not having identical twins as we once thought--and you know what, I'm perfectly fine with that. What matters is that there was one beautiful, healthy heartbeat that took my breath away.

I will update with ultrasound pics tonight!


Wednesday, April 7, 2010

8 weeks and counting...

Today, I am 8 weeks pregnant. The spotting has completely stopped now, so I am hopeful that my appt on April 15 will bring good news. I know it's only a week away, but I seriously feel like the last two weeks have gone by in slow motion. I will feel so much better when I have my ultrasound and I can see that everything is okay. Right now, I feel like everything is fine because my morning sickness is in full swing...and it's more accurately described as an all day sort of sickness. I have found a strong aversion to pizza. Just the smell of it makes me sick! So, this has to be a good sign, right?

But, I'm still scared, so continue to covet your prayers and thank you for the ones you've already said for me.