Monday, November 5, 2012

30 Days of Thanksgiving: Day 3-5

30 Days of Thanksgiving
Day 3 & 4
I am thankful that because I have experienced miscarriages, I truly know how precious life is.  Please don't misconstrue what I'm saying--I loved deeply both of the babies I loss to miscarriage.  However, because I've experienced how quickly life can be taken away, I also feel as if I love Kade and Kohen a little differently than people who have not experienced loss or infertility.  I have a little more patience with them.  I pick up on things I may have otherwise missed.  I try to soak up each and every moment with them. 

I am also thankful that when I thought I was ready to be a parent that God intervened.  Although I totally disagreed (at that time) with His decision, I know that He was working our circumstances out for good.  I am a better parent now than I would have been back then.  I don't feel as though I was financially, emotionally, or physically ready to be a parent and assuming the responsibility of raising children.  God knew me better than I did.  Even though my heart was broken both times I miscarried, I realize now that God was bringing Himself glory.  I know that nothing gets to me unless it first passes through Him.  He knew it would break my heart, but He also knew it would draw me closer to Him

Day 5
I am thankful for this bible verse which brought me comfort after miscarriage:

"He shall feed his flock like a shepherd:
he shall gather the lambs with his arm,
and carry them in his bosom,
and shall gently lead those that are with young." 
Isaiah 40:11, KJV

Lord, if I've never told you before, thank you for allowing me to experience such a heartbreaking circumstance.  I was totally broken after experiencing miscarriages, but You used this time in my life to force me to only see You.  Thank you for giving me two extra reasons to look forward to eternity with You.  Thank you for carrying my babies in your bosom when I couldn't carry them in mine.  Thank you for always gently leading me to You.  I praise you for your goodness and your grace to face every heartbreaking circumstance.  I love you Lord, and I thank you for the wisdom I've gained during these heartbreaking moments.  Amen.    

1 comment:

Cat Logan said...

I completely agree with this post. I love my twins so much and still have hard times with my loss but I am so thankful that they are still my babies and I will get to hold them one day! I am also so thankful they never had to know the pain and suffering of this world. They were given a gift of only knowing happiness. I may hurt because of my loss for them but they will never hurt.