Monday, January 7, 2013

Random update

I think it's cycle day 18 for me.  We are moving towards 4 months of no birth control.  I still occasionally think we are finished growing our family (especially if I am super stressed out), but there are more days that I think I'm not.  I could be wrong, but maybe I am trying to protect my heart from the woes of Infertility.  I guess that's why I haven't gotten so wrapped up the roller coaster of trying to conceive.  I haven't charted.  I haven't taken ovulation predictors.  I haven't "scheduled" quality time.   I would love to have one more child if that's God's will for our lives, but I feel selfish asking or praying for that, so I haven't.  Does that sound silly?