30 Days of Thanksgiving: Day 14-15

30 Days of Thanksgiving for Infertility

Day 13 I blogged about how I was thankful for people who prayed for me when I could no longer pray for myself.  Today's post goes hand in hand with Day 13.

Day 14
I am thankful that the Lord intercedes on our behalf and knows our heart when we can't put our feelings into words.  I am so thankful that He could put into words what I could not.

We also know the Spirit makes intercession for us because the bible tells us so:

Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for

 we know not what we should pray

 for as we ought: but the

Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings

 which cannot be uttered.

And he that searcheth the hearts knoweth what is the mind of the Spirit,

because he maketh intercession for the saints

 according to the will of God.

Romans 8:26-27

Day 15

I spent the majority of my infertility years feeling down on myself.  I was often the host of a pity party which you were lucky enough to remain uninvited to.  Honestly, that's just how it was.  I'd go through some good days at the first of the month ("Oh, we are trying again.  This WILL be the month.").  The middle of the month was okay.  ("We need to schedule "quality time" on this, this, and this day.).  The end of the month was filled with stress. (Could I be?  I'm not...I know I'm not.) And, the end of the month was almost always the same outcome.  (Shut door.  Cry myself to sleep.  Yell at God.  Cry some more.)  But after a few days, I'd snap out of it and the cycle rollercoaster would start over.  During my good days (and because our cycles weren't together), I was able to encourage other people who I'd met blogging.  Even if it's just a comment saying, "I'm praying for you,"  I am humbled to know that God used me to encourage others when I allowed Him to do so--which wasn't nearly often enough--and He used me when I felt unuseable.