Monday, June 23, 2008

Can you all keep a secret?

I have been impatiently waiting to tell you all.....after 5 years of ttc....and 2 miscarriages....I am currently 6weeks pregnant. My projected due date: Feb 17, 2009.

This came as a total surprise to me and K. I've known for about 2 weeks. It's been so hard not to shout this from the roof tops. I want to be so very excited--but history speaks loudly, and I am so very scared.

I called my doc on June 12 and told him of my positive test. He wanted me to come in immediately. I saw the nurse who loaded me down with vitamins, magazines, pamphlets... At one point, I had to just say..."I really appreciate you giving me all this stuff, but I'm just not ready to be reading any pregnancy magazines." She understood. I didn't get to see the doc, but he prescribed progesterone suppositories to be taken at night until I am 12 weeks.

I actually had to go back to the doc last week because I developed a UTI. This time, I was able to see Dr. R himself. He asked me how I felt. I explained I was cautiously over the moon. He then asked me if I had any ultrasounds scheduled. I told him the nurse set my first two appointments (July 9th for an OB workup; Aug 13 ultrasound--I would be 13 weeks). He asked how I felt about that, and I told him I was really nervous of another blighted ovum. So, he is bringing me in early for a vitality ultrasound.

This is set for Monday, June 30. Please, please, please....don't stop praying for me now. I want so much to believe that this time will be different. I know that God already knows the outcome. Each morning, I say to myself, "Elaine, we just have to make it though today...." I am trying not to worry about the future, but as you can tell, my anxiety is at a peak.

We finished up our foster parent training this past weekend. We still have our home study to do, and CPR/First Aid.

To all my sweet friends....I've felt defeated more times than I could count on this IF journey. I learn every day that the Lord still answers prayers. Whatever happens, we will thank him for giving us the time we have had to love this little one whom we've never met.

What I would give to meet this little one.... I am high risk, and I have been ordered by Dr. R to abstain from sex until 8-10 weeks. He wants to see the baby's heart beat first. So, please, please pray for a healthy baby next Monday....with a good, strong heart beat.

21 comments:

soapchick said...

A cautious congratulations to you! Praying this pregnancy continues and blesses you with a beautiful baby!

Mel said...

Wonderful news!
I know God is watching over you guys and I hope everything goes wonderfully with this baby.
*hugs

alison said...

Oh my goodness! A cautious congrats, also! Thanks for your sweet comments on my blog too. I'll keep you in my prayers. You're just a week ahead of me, so I'm going to need you to pave the way, mmmk? :) *hugs*

In Search of Morning Sickness said...

I am so (cautiously) happy for you too. I know how scary this is before you can get the ultrasound.... Can't wait for the June 30th appt!!!

Fertilized said...

Elaine - I knew something was up with your silence! BUT this is great great great news. Praying for you and the lil one!

Bryant Family said...

Oh, Elaine! You and your precious baby are in my prayers. I am so (cautiously) happy for you!

Deidre said...

My lips have been sealed, Elaine, but I am praying. Continue to take one day at a time. What a cool thing that you get to have an early ultrasound! You are in good hands.

Alison said...

Oh my gosh Elaine!!! First Alison and now you! I am crying and my heart is overflowing with joy for you my friend. I am praying right now for you!

The Baker's said...

Congrats to you. I to have some news I am pg as well. I am 5wks 4 days today. I found out on Sat. I will be praying you. I to am nervous. Praying that we both have a good pregnancy. HUgs.

WISHING...HOPING...and PRAYING said...

aaaaauuughhhh! i am soooo excited but cautiously of course. i am saying extra prayers for you tonight and can't wait for updates. yay!

andrea_jennine said...

Good news!

Charne Trollip said...

o my gosh, congrats!! this is a miracle, God has been good to you.... so happy for you

Jen said...

Oh my goodness! Congratulations, Elaine! I'm so happy for you!

Glenna Marshall said...

I am up for a three a.m. feeding with my new little one and am ctching up on blogs. I am SO praying for you!!! Praying the Lord sustains this precious pregnancy!!

Joy said...

I hope you see a heartbeat!!!

Hope said...

Praying that everything is perfect and this time next year you will be thanking Him for dirty diapers and late night feedings.

((HUGS))

Janna said...

How exciting Elaine!!! I'm saying lots of prayers that this little one stays put!!!

Susan said...

Hi! I heard about your wonderful news from Gracechild. Congratulations! I pray that you have a healthy and easy full-term pregnancy. I know the daily agony and fear of every trip to the bathroom. I sense your strong faith and feel that that will carry you through these hard times. I look forward to reading about your journey.

Sunny said...

Wonderful news!!!!

Christy said...

Elaine, I am so, so, very happy and excited for you! What a wonderful answer to your prayers. I'll continue to pray for you.

Sorry it took me so long to catch up on your news . . . it's been crazy around here.

Alex & Jill said...

OMG, Elaine! I'm just getting to read this since I've been without a computer for the past few weeks! I'm sitting here crying...I'm so happy for you! I wish I had known last night...I would have added you to the Congrats list on my first post back. You and that sweet baby are in my prayers! *HUGS*