Secondly, I haven't had that great of a day today. Do any of you find the holiday's tough? I stated in an earlier post that it was another year of an empty back seat in our car. Last night, I broke down at dinner in a public restaurant because of the conversation that K and I.
K: You really need to stop worrying so much. You worry about things 4 months from now, that no one else would worry about right now. I am going to take care to you. I need you to repeat that to me.
Me: I know you are going to take care of me.......BUT (the ever-dreaded "but" and when the tears started streaming down my cheeks uncontrollably) I learned my lesson on "not worrying." I never "worried" that I would be one of those people who couldn't have children. Now, that's all I worry about. I have to worry now....I learned my lesson.
Some topics I will discuss with my doctor tomorrow include:
- Is my Endo back?
- Is another Laparoscopy necessary?
- If so, can you also fix my septum while you are "in there?"
- Should I give IUI one last try before my remaining expensive injectible's expire.?
- Is there something I can take for Panic Attacks that is safe while ttc?
- Checking my cervical fluid to make sure I don't have any sort of infections.
I'll post tomorrow with the results.
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I'm sorry Elaine. You have been trying far longer than me so I won't pretend to know how you feel. But I can sympathize and my heart breaks for you. Sometimes it is all I can think about and I find it so easy to compare myself to other "successful" couples. I HATE coveting. It only turns your attention AWAY from your own blessings. I just keep asking myself "Is God good?" and "Will you trust Him?". Praying for you!
Praying praying praying for you! I am sorry that life if chucking things at you right now
2 posts in one day!
first of all, i know what you mean. i feel like i am ALWAYS at the doctors, but it is always for a specific problem. found out over the summer that i hadn't had a physical in 3 years as well. needed one for work and was glad to get that taken care of.
the holidays can definitely be hard when you are ttc. it took 3 years to get pregnant for my hubby and i, so almost 4 years of childless holidays. my heart goes out to you. i lost my dad right around christmas, so i can relate to the sadness that accompanies such a joyous time.
i hope all goes well with your appt. i also maybe getting a lap done. my doc is not ready to do an iui yet which disappoints me b/c i had my heart set on it.
good luck tomorrow!
{{{BIG HUGS}}} I hope that your appointment went well today and you got answers to your questions (even remembering some of them is a great thing! LOL) I'm waiting for your post on how it all went. And just remember - you have the reason and right to rant any time you want, or cry if the need is there!!
Elaine,
I hope your doctor's appointment went well and was productive.
Let us know and I will be praying for you!
In HIM -
Mindy
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