Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Last year on mothers day, I wrote this post. At this time in my life, I really felt that I would never celebrate Mother's Day.

This year, I am a Mom. But, I'll be honest, I felt Mother's Day was bittersweet. The sweet part is that I got to hold my precious son, a child I never anticipated I would hold just 12 months ago. In fact, this year I won the mother with the youngest baby award at our church. My church is rather large, so this came as a huge surprise to me. If someone would have told me last May this would happen this year, I would have told them they were crazy....

The bitter part was that my heart was still so heavy for the women who are still waiting on their miracles. This pain is still fresh for me, and it probably has scarred my heart forever. Ladies, I'm still praying for you. I'm praying for God to give you your miracles, and for Him to give you patience in the time between. I pray this day wasn't hard for you, and if it was, I pray that God gave you the comfort you needed.

I hope you all are having a wonderful week so far!

5 comments:

Confessions of a momaholic said...

amazing how much a year changes. think of you often!!!

Lisa said...

I feel the same way. There are so many gals that I follow and they follow my blog as well and my heart literally hurts for them. I remember so clearly the pain that I felt and experienced while I went through everything and seeing as though I have walked in their shoes... I wish I could just make things happen for them. I pray for guys and gals that experience infertility on a daily basis. It is often hard to swallow what could have been if I wouldn't have had insurance. I am just so thankful that God granted us with a beautiful, happy and healthy little boy.

Blessings to you,
Lisa

Christy said...

Happy Mother's Day to you! I completely get what you mean about it being bittersweet. And I'm with you, last year I never would have imagined being here. I'm so glad you are "here".

Deidre said...

I was so tickled to see you win that award on Sunday. I thought 'how appropriate!'. I'm with you, though. I wish so much our pastor wouldn't have the Moms stand because for so many years that 10 seconds used to tear me apart. It still does. But, God has worked a miracle in your life so don't you ever feel guilty. Enjoy and BE HAPPY with your blessing. I know you are!

The Lynchs said...

I'm so happy you got to win that award!

It's so kind of you to think of those of us still anticipating our little miracles, but you get out there and CELEBRATE every single Mother's Day! You deserve it! :)