Monday, September 3, 2007

Who knew getting Pregnant would be this Hard?

If you've some how made it to this page, it's likely from a google search and an inability to get pregnant. I've been there. You could have also stumbled here by searching for "scriptures for conceiving" or "pregnancy prayer." I've been there too. In fact, I've added a tab on my page for Bible Verses where you can find God's words to help you in your journey to parenthood. Some of them literally got me through day-to-day. However, they aren't a prescription to get pregnant, but more-so a way to meditate on God's word and trust in His ability to work a miracle in your life/womb. If you feel alone, you are definitley not alone in your journey... See that tab that says "Support Circle?" It links to the blogs of other women who are/have struggled to get pregnant. Some have beaten the odds. What you have actually found here is the first "recorded" memory in my personal journey to become a parent. My husband, Kyle, and I's journey actually started a few years earlier than when I wrote this all down. It was a long, painful journey...So, come along for the ride of our journey to becoming parents. It's a long, bumpy, twisted ride, but it doesn't stop here! We were told we would never be parents. All hope was literally lost. However, God swooped right in and showed us He ultimately is in control. Now, looking back I can tell you it was all worth it--every tear, every heartache, every prayer, every moment. So, welcome! I hope you will stick around for a minute, but more importantly, I hope our story will encourage you!
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09/03/2007

My name is Elaine. I am 27 years old, and I am married to a wonderful man, K. We have been married for 4 years, and we have been trying to have a baby since our wedding night. Here we are years down the road and two miscarriages later still without a baby to hold.

So here I am. I decided to title my blog My prayers, His promises in hopes to reinforce my faith in God. He hears my prayers and will answer them in His time. I hold on to the promises He has made me in His Word.

A little bit about me:

I found out I was pregnant with our first child December 23, 2004. What perfect timing! At this point we had been trying to conceive for 14 months. With Christmas a few days later, we felt it to be a perfect time to tell all of our family and friends. December 30, exactly one week later, I started spotting and had my husband take me to the emergency room. My highest high in life became my lowest low. I was having a “probable” miscarriage the doctor had said. The only thing I could do was go home and wait it out. I was only 5.5 weeks.

Telling my family and friends was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. Their words of comfort, for example, “There must have been something wrong with the baby,” or, “At least you know you can get pregnant, and you’ll have another chance,” or “It was God’s will,” did nothing but make me angry. ANGRY. No one, NO ONE understood the heartache that I was/still am feeling. I knew that they loved me, but nothing they could say would comfort me.

No matter how much I doubted it, to my surprise, the sun still rose each morning. It didn’t quite shine the same way to me, but never-the-less, life went on with or without my participation. I cut myself off from everyone: my husband, my family, friends, GOD. It’s almost like I was embarrassed. This wasn’t supposed to happen to me. No one in my entire family had ever had a miscarriage; I am healthy; I am young; I take care of myself; I am a good person. How could this happen? More importantly, where was God?? I don’t know how Jesus felt when he was on the cross dying for my sins, but I truly felt that God had forsaken me at this point.

Months past, I got out of church and out of God’s will. I partied with my friends. Eight months later, August 04, 2005 I found out I was pregnant again. Again, it couldn’t have occurred at a more perfect time. I was avoiding what was suppose to be my estimated due date with baby #1 (August 30, 2005) when I found out I was pregnant again. I was shocked!! Could this be the baby we would hold? My pregnancy seemed to progress normally, or so I thought. I had all the pregnancy symptoms. I felt good….different this time. This was it. I knew it… I felt confident that God would bless us with a child this time around.

At my first doctor’s appointment, I had my first sonogram. I was so excited to see the baby…I couldn’t wait. I’ll never forget what the technician said (you know they aren’t supposed to say anything), “It doesn’t look like an 8 week baby to me…” At first, I thought I had misunderstood her. As the silence progressed I knew I hadn’t. This time, I had a blighted ovum…a sac, but the baby never developed. I thought I was pregnant, my body thought I was pregnant…I had to have a d & c the same day. It was Sept. 6, 2005

I just couldn’t believe it had happened again. All of the comforting statistics…I’m sure you’ve heard them yourself…once you lose a baby to miscarriage the likelihood of it happening again is decreased… Although that is supposed to be a true statistic, it did not apply to me. I asked the doctor if we were now eligible for any sort of testing…and we are not until we have had three miscarriages. Why would I put myself, my family, or my husband back through this again, especially if something is truly wrong with me?

We have now gone through preliminary testing. My husband has had a semen analysis and I have had a HSG, which is an x-ray of your abdomen to make sure your tubes are open. Both checked out okay. Since we had now been trying for more than 6 months since my 2nd miscarriage, my doctor agreed to try clomid and IUI. I tried not to get my hopes up as its success rate is only 20%. Let’s face it, odds have never exactly gone in my favor. It failed.We repeated the IUI with clomid…then injectible drugs…and repeated it again. Five unsuccessful IUI’s, on we go in this quest of mother/father-hood.

I did handle my second miscarriage a little better emotionally. I guess it is because I knew what to expect this time around. There are days that I think I am strong. Don’t let that fool you…there were/still are days that I cry so much that I don’t know how I could not be dehydrated when I finally get myself together. The emptiness is still in the depth of my soul, and no matter what I do, I don’t know how to fill it.

I am back in church now. I have made some changes in my life which can only be to my benefit. I pray…I have tried and tried to give this problem to God. On days I think I have. Then there are days that I know I haven’t, but I am just not sure what to do differently. There are days that I just simply go through the motions of life…there are days that I catch myself smiling and laughing again though. (Thank you, God)

A few weeks ago, we found out some of our friends are expecting their 2nd. Basically, we were trying when they conceived their first, and now they are pregnant again. Life just seems so unfair at times. “Why, God? What have I done to make You so mad at me?” I have literally watched some people get pregnant, have babies, and now their children are turning THREE since K and I have been trying to have our first child.It seems everywhere I look are pregnant women: on television, at shopping centers, work, church…and I am not one of them. It kills me.

My prayers, His promises...I just have to keep faith. Good days/Bad days. That’s just the way life is for me/us now. We just pray and pray and pray…I haven't been able to put it in God’s hands…not because of my lack of faith in Him, I just don't know how. I just pray. Every time I think about it now, I just pray! Even when I’m all prayed out—I just pray. I know that prayer is what has gotten me through the last few years spiritually and emotionally, not to mention has only helped our marriage become better and stronger.

Some people think I need to consider seeking professional help, because I am always so sad. How do you seek help for mourning a dream you have? K and I have agreed it's time to do IVF...we at first didn't want to tell anyone, because to be honest, it's somewhat embarrassing to me as a woman. But I am seeking anyone's advice who has been down this road before and can offer any guidance. It's not a guarantee, but it's a new journey of itself and is completely new to us since we don't know anyone personally who has gone through this.

So that's why I'm here...My prayers, His promises. I am going to lean on other Christian women who can help pray me through this journey. I want to pray for you too, whatever your circumstances may be. I know now that I am not alone in this, nor am I the only person who has gone through something this "life-changing." It has changed my life--every single aspect.

Thanks for reading this, I know it has been lengthy. Thank you for giving me somewhere to express these feelings. Thank you for the new friends I will meet and the prayer partners I will gain. Thank you, Lord, in advance for how you will use this blog for Your glory.

53 comments:

DeAnna said...
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andrea_jennine said...

Welcome to the infertility blogging community, and to the small subset of Christian IF bloggers! I wish none of us had to be in this boat, but I'm glad we can at least be on board together.

Janna said...

Oh my goodness. I could have written this entry. Our stories are so similar. I'm sorry you've had such a difficult time. At times I think it's unfair all that we've been through, but other times I think this is just our cross to carry while others have something different to carry that's just as heartbreaking. We're moving on to adoption this year because I just can't handle what I have allowed infertility to do to me as a Christian woman. Hopefully both of our dreams of becoming mommies will come true really soon.

WILESHIA said...

hi my name is wileshia n i have seen your story n i pray that u get pregnant but sometimes u have to take a stap back n see d bigger picture god hear your prayers and belive he want u to be happy but maybe your faith is not as strong as u think it is maybe deep down u doubt him stop asking why this happen and just belive in him n belive he will blass you or maybe u n your husbund is not on d same page mayb he have doubts it could be a lot of things that could be blocking your blessing just pray n i will too n belive u n ur husbund

Anonymous said...

hi i have never had a miscarriage but i felt the same way you did when a true man of God told me that i was open to have my husband baby and by faith i know God is gonna bless us with this baby its all about faith mark 11:24 i am standing on God word for this baby and i believe and i recieve this baby in jesus name and you stand on his word also may God grant you your wish in jesus holy name amen.and thank God for the gift

Nne said...

I am currently in this same situation.. Been looking to God since 2006. Atimes I feel like crying because like you said it hurts a lot to see people all around you pregnant and having kids but I have decided to lean on God's work in utter self abandonment.. I have told Him that He's all I've got and I KNOW that he will not leave me or U hanging out to dry.. We will conceive and give birth to wonderful children in Jesus' name. Believe His word despite what you see or feel. Its our season of testimonies.. Baby dust!!

Anonymous said...

My name is Breeana and I, like these other ladies have said now somewhat how you feel. I am now 22 years old and everyone tells me I am to young to try to conceive. All of my friends have babies and my best friends for years found out yesterday that she is now pregnant. So here I am the only one without a little blessing. I try to talk to my husband about it but he just doesn't seem to grasp where I am coming from. He is a wondeful man but he truly does not understand. I am a devoted Christian and love God with all my heart. My biggest question to Him is Why? And I am sure almost anyone that is in this boat can agree. But today is a new and differnet day for me. I am no longer going to ask God why but thank Him in advance for giving me my bundle of joy:) I wrote down a bunch of scriptures that are uplifting and really minister to me and I have put those bad boys EVERYWHERE!! I truly believe that before my anniversay which is 07/28I will be pregnant. I hope and pray that everything turns out well for all of you and you all have touched my heart. Have a great day and my prayers are with you and your families, and you can trust that I am praying for you.

Natasha said...

I was reading ur blog and thinking this is me at the moment.....crying ,sad ...just don't feel like doing anything, am angry all the time,it's getting so hard for me to believe in HIM,at times i just can't, i cry myself to sleep. It's just killing me inside and i feel so alone

Anonymous said...

I know exactly how you feel. I've been trying to conceive since fall of '06. I've been to two different specialist and have had two unsuccessful IUI's. It seems as if my life and my husband's life are surrounded by two's when it comes to babies. We both were twins...and neither of our twin siblings survived. I am in the field of education so I always think that "here I am taking care of other people's kis for 8 hours a day (and the parents trust me), but for some reason God appears not to trust me enough to give me my own. Now it was even more difficult for me to even go to work some days. Fertility/Infertility was literally taking over our lives so we decided to let go and let God. I have learned (through tears, depression, and a whole lot of prayer) to accept what God allows; for all things work together for my good. I had my last break down at work back in early May. I feel like I'm slowly running out of time..I will be 34 this year. I had not cried like that in a long time. I'd been able to "mask" everything for so long...and then all of a sudden it just hit me like a ton of bricks.
Now, I have chosen a new number to focus on.....the number three...representing the Father, Son, & Holy Spirit. I am now waiting on God to mix his "super" with my "natural".

Anonymous said...

amanda said
i am so sorry honey you know i just llost a child of 3 months i am still not over it but like you i have prayed and there is this prayer i am going to tpy here for you i pray it everyday. i am sorry you have had such a bad time but here it is CONCEPTION AND PREGNANCY PRAYER
I think you father that Jesus has borne all my sickness and diseases and carried all my pains away so by his stripes I am heeled and made whole! Therefore, in Jesus mighty name.... i blind Satan’s power and hold over my womb, my body and my mind. I command ALL forms of sickness and disease to be removed. I command infertility and the cure of barrenness to be removed in Jesus mighty name!

I profess according to the word of god that..... I have a blessed, prosperous, healthy and FRUITFUL womb! I command health into my body and I say “body in Jesus name you are to conceive and be pregnant!! Every part of you is to come in line with the word of GOD. You will function efficiently,
The way you were created to be: fearfully and wonderfully made!!

I also pray for good solid attachment of the baby to the uterine wall, and then for my baby to grow perfectly, be nourished, and protected for the full nine months. I plead the blood of Jesus as a hedge of protection around the womb, protecting my baby from all harm. I declare this in the name of Jesus, as the word says: ask whatever you wish in the name of Jesus and it will be done and I claim this in the name of Jesus. I give you all the glory for my healing and for my baby. Let it be done to me according to your word!

I confess in Jesus Christ as lord of my life and I receive the power of god that is the fullness of my salvation I thank you lord that by Jesus strips I have been healed! Therefore, I bind satins power over my body and I resist sickness, disease and pain, in Jesus name! I pray satin is to loose his hold on my body and life forever. Jesus has borne all my sickness and diseases and my pain in my place so I can be set free think you father. I am redeemed from the curse of the law. I am redeemed from miscarriage I am redeemed from barrenness therefore I command my body in Jesus name to come in line with the WORD OF GOD and to behave healed. You are to function the way god created you to: perfectly and efficiently because you are fearfully and wonderfully made. I proclaim my freedom and redemption today and I pronounce in Jesus mighty name I am made whole
Thank you Jesus I claim all of this in your wonderful name
Amen

Anonymous said...

CONCEPTION AND PREGNANCY PRAYER
I think you father that Jesus has borne all my sickness and diseases and carried all my pains away so by his stripes I am heeled and made whole! Therefore, in Jesus mighty name.... i blind Satan’s power and hold over my womb, my body and my mind. I command ALL forms of sickness and disease to be removed. I command infertility and the cure of barrenness to be removed in Jesus mighty name!

I profess according to the word of god that..... I have a blessed, prosperous, healthy and FRUITFUL womb! I command health into my body and I say “body in Jesus name you are to conceive and be pregnant!! Every part of you is to come in line with the word of GOD. You will function efficiently,
The way you were created to be: fearfully and wonderfully made!!

I also pray for good solid attachment of the baby to the uterine wall, and then for my baby to grow perfectly, be nourished, and protected for the full nine months. I plead the blood of Jesus as a hedge of protection around the womb, protecting my baby from all harm. I declare this in the name of Jesus, as the word says: ask whatever you wish in the name of Jesus and it will be done and I claim this in the name of Jesus. I give you all the glory for my healing and for my baby. Let it be done to me according to your word!

I confess in Jesus Christ as lord of my life and I receive the power of god that is the fullness of my salvation I thank you lord that by Jesus strips I have been healed! Therefore, I bind satins power over my body and I resist sickness, disease and pain, in Jesus name! I pray satin is to loose his hold on my body and life forever. Jesus has borne all my sickness and diseases and my pain in my place so I can be set free think you father. I am redeemed from the curse of the law. I am redeemed from miscarriage I am redeemed from barrenness therefore I command my body in Jesus name to come in line with the WORD OF GOD and to behave healed. You are to function the way god created you to: perfectly and efficiently because you are fearfully and wonderfully made. I proclaim my freedom and redemption today and I pronounce in Jesus mighty name I am made whole
Thank you Jesus I claim all of this in your wonderful name
Amen

palumbo said...

Hello my name is shelia from fla I have been married 9yrs and also have been trying to have a child I'm in no way giving up even when people say I'm to old. I'm just wanted to stand with other women who feel alone. Let stand together believing that god doesn't want us barren and that at the appointed time we will have victory.

Anonymous said...

God has his own plans for everyone and has a reason for everything and we should have faith in him and keep praying, I will pray for you and I am sure there are many to pray for you as well. You will have a baby soon.

JuLes said...

Ur story hit home for me. I have been wanting to be pregnant for much longer than u an am only 26 years old. I grew up in a Christian home as a child but was taken from the home at an early age as well. As I have never been pregnant in my life I feel like Moses and am now reverting back to that blind faith in God I had as a child. I feel at times as though God is trying to hold me up when things get dissapointing for me. I am scared to see a doctor as they may confirm my worst nightmare- I cannot have children. I have been praying praying praying to God to tell me in his own way and give me the strength to stand firm in the unknown. God has truly blessed u- I can feel the strength He has blessed u with so u are able to move forrward with the right mindset. Your faith in God will be rewarded- u will have a child and u will know God gave u that child and ur faith will only become stronger. I also want to thank u for sharing - words couldn't begin to describe......

Anonymous said...

i am deeply touched by your story actually i am crying while reading it because just like you i've been undergoing disappointments and frustrations of getting pregnant my husband and i have been married for more than 3 years and still childless i had my first iui but yesterday my monthly period came i really cried coz i expected too much..i know there's a reason for everything and in God's time he will give us what we want we have to keep on hoping and never give up no matter what..be strong with our faith in HIM..im also praying for you..God Bless and Take care

Anonymous said...

Hi,
My name is Amy. I have a wonderful 3-year old son. My husband were excited about adding to our family and just found out last week that I am heading into menopause at 35! You can only imagine our shock. We had been trying to have another child for a year and a half. As of this week, my period is delayed. I'm now 12 days late. Without a period it just seems like my chapter is closed but I cant seem to accept it. I love the lord dearly and do not believe this is his will for me. One second, my faith is firm and the next, I wonder if this is his will for me. Wont he give me peace if this was his will for me? I'm so confused and dont know what to do. I looked into adoption this morning but felt that my heart wasnt in taking that route. I believe nothing is impossible for God. He loves me! How is this his will for me! He gave Sarah a child after she had definitely past menopause. I dont want to give up but I dont feel like I have the strenght to fight. Even worse for me is that after our son was born, i went on birth control for a year. Now i know I shouldnt have. I cant seem to forgive myself for that mistake. Can you tell I am a mixed up mess right now. I'm just praying for direction.

Thanks for your blog. The comments are encouraging.

nadia said...

I read your blog and i know exactly what your going through.I've been in 3 relationships and no preagnancy,miscarrige,or nothing.I've been to the doctor and said i can get preagnant,but right now im with my 3rd relationship and nothing yet.

I pray and pray and pray to the Holy Lord "why me?" "why cant i get preagnant?" "why am i the only one not havin babys?".
I have two sisters and a brother and it hurts me cuz they have kids and i dont.When im in the delivery room i get real sentimental cuz i still dont have the blessing to have my own.

When im really hurt and sentimental i sometimes blame it to God and i cry about it in the middle of the night or by myself.

When i watch TLC "Baby Stories" i start to cry and it hurts me really bad.i just keep praying to God that in his time the least that i know i will be preagnent with my first baby.

God Bless!!!!!

Anonymous said...

Hi, I am 20 years old and got married to my husband in December of 2009. yes i am young but god has brought us together. we both are strong believers of jesus christ. we have been trying for 3 months to get pregnant which i know is not as long as most of you but I can say i can relate to the disappointment that once a month when the period comes. I just want to say I think you all are strong people and reading this blog and reading all your posts has really kept me on track to what matters the most which is God and not this world. Thank you everyone for sharing your stories and reminding me why I need to pray to Jesus and ask him instead of turning to this world and running to doctors. Everything is in gods time not our time.

percy said...

These blogs sound oh so familar its crazy. Me and my husband have been together for 11 yrs and trying to have a little one with no luck at all. We had to do some tests and mine came out good but my husbands sperm is 98 % abnormal! What this cant be happening my husband was crushed it was like it took his manhood away for a long while and then he started making fun of himself to cover the pain. I cant stop thinking about it I want a kid so bad I pray and pray and pray all day every day. I cant seem to let this feeling go I get depressed and cry all the time just reading these blogs I started crying at work. We will still try but Im not going to do the Doctor stuff anymore if it happens it happens if it dont I will be sad till the day I die and yes it makes you more depressed when everybody you know has children are their pregnant even your younger cousins having a baby before you is depressing!! I believe in Jesus Christ and I believe he is the son of the living God! I just wonder if he hears me sometimes I feel left out like no one hears me. I want to be called mommy one day! Please God answer our prayers and let us all be a mommy one day!!!!!!!

Zoe said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your miscarriages. It's now 2011 I hope that your dream of becoming a mother as come true. I have been trying to conceive since 2008, I have not even been able to conceive. I feel so empty, everyone around me is falling pregnant and it just not happening to me. The doctors have not been very helpful. The medication they have given me has so many side effects. I think it has ruined my insides. I feel like giving up. To be a mother is my only dream. I cry all the time, I pray to god. I am not a bad person, I feel that god doesn't want me to be happy. I have been married for almost 5yrs and people are starting to talk, I don't care but infertility is embarrassing thing for a woman. God made our bodies to conceive and give birth to babies. Then why is there so many woman dying out there to have children, to raise them good, provide for them and love them unconditionally. Then you see people who don't even try, fall pregnant and neglect there children. IRS just not fair. Does anyone no any naturally healthy ways to fall pregnant?

Amanda said...

Thank you.. It is so nice to know I am not alone. Your story has touche dnot only my heart but many others. May God continue to bless you and your family!

Amanda said...

Thank you for sharing your story. It helps to know I am not alone.
My 1st pregnancy was great and I have a 21 month old beautiful daughter. My 2nd pregnancy ended in miscarriage at almost 13 weeks...no heartbeat. I am now 5 weeks pregnant and believing God's promises. The only thing that keeps me going is meditating on the Word! God is faithful and just. I pray he continues to bless you and your family. Thanks <3

Anonymous said...

Thank you for your story. I am infertile and I would love to have a baby with my husband.I have been infertile for many years and I have read scriptures on God's promises like yourself, which have helped me to get through each day. I am going to continue to have faith in God because I know that he will make his promises come to pass in my life as well as yourself and others, if it is his will, It will be done.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for your story. I am infertile and I would love to have a baby with my husband.I have been infertile for many years and I have read scriptures on God's promises like yourself, which have helped me to get through each day. I am going to continue to have faith in God because I know that he will make his promises come to pass in my life as well as yourself and others, if it is his will, It will be done.

Anonymous said...

i got to your blog as i was searching for prayers to conceive, I was very touched afer reading your story, i too feel the same way, an have been searching for prayers to conceive!!! it been 4 yrs of marriage but still childless.

Anonymous said...

[b] hello everybody after 2 years of trying i got pregnant by IUI but we lost the baby after 2 months i know the feeling and heartbreaking but i am still praying may god show his mercy to us and we get pregnant again and hopefully this time bless me with the healthy baby

Anonymous said...

i to came across ur blog ,looking for prayers to conceive ,my husband and i have been married for 16 years now ,and still no children ,im the oldest of all in our house ,most of my brothers and sisters alreday have kids ,except me ,it makes me sad when i think of it ,but i still have hopes that i will be a momy some day soon ,im 36 years old and have had 3 ius and 6 ivfs one miscarriage :( .
ur right when u say who say who knew getting pregnant would be so hard ) its true it should be so simple and easy and beautiful .but not for everyone ...anyway i will keep u all in my prayers everynight ..wish u luck .

Madison said...

I understand what all of you are going through and I'm sorry that we have to deal with imperfections such as miscarriages and not being able to conceive. I cry myself to sleep and pray to God that he would bless me with just on child to hold. I would love and protect him/her. I would be the best mother I could be. It hurts so bad that I've been trying since I got married to my husband Kyle and we haven't had any luck yet but I keep my head up and hopefully when its God timing he will bless me with a child. Good luck to everyone who has struggled in trying to conceive.

Anonymous said...

my story couldnt be written better than this......thats where i'am right now and i must say ITS VERY VERY HARD TIME for me....
am totally crushed and losing hope....yet my faith though very small still clings to God

Anonymous said...

I definitely understand what you're going through. Its hard when your only dream in life is to become a mother and it seems as if you can get everything else you want in the world, except that. And then seeing people have child after child with no real want for the child, its difficult because you know you would give almost anything to have a baby of your own. I believe in God with everything in me, but its hard to trust that everything is going to work out sometimes. ITs not a lack of faith in God for me, its a lack of faith in myself. When you haven't got pregnant after trying for so long, it makes you believe something is wrong with you and you start thinking you can't have children.

its just a vicious cycle thats hard to run away from. The only thing you can do is pray and hope for the best. I trust that God knows this is the one thing that is in my heart that I truly care about achieving in life. I know he won't let me down. He will make me a mother. I know that much. I just can't seem to predict when.

Anonymous said...

This is what I needed. Everything you felt is how I am feeling now. It felt good to know I am not losing my mind and there are other women who completely understand. This journey can feel really lonely...but when you find someone who gets it that can be such a great feeling. Thank you for sharing. Please pray for us.

Anonymous said...

anonymous said

thank u for the blog. I'm a mother of one a 3yr old girl l was blessed after 2yrs of trying. Having been told that l had imbalanced hormones. Now its been 18mnts since l started trying again for another child and the major problem is that l don't get my normal monthly periods. I'm currently on clomid and metformin. I strongly believe that God has something great in store for me. Please pray for me so that l get healed.

pee said...

thank u for the blog l have been trying to conceive for 2yrs but the main problem is l don't get my monthly periods. Currently l'm on clomid and metformin. Please pray for me.

sitara said...

i with u.. im trying for the last 11 yrs..but i still trust jesus.. whos is a fair lord.. i claim his promises.. that all his plans are for my prosperity, and if i ask i shall receive..and with jesus on my side.. who can stand against me... we just nedd to keep thfaith.. and beleive.. thatat the right time.. the good lord willl bless .. coz jesus doesnt want us to have infertility.. he wants to bless.. we just need to pray and claim his word in faith...

Anonymous said...

I am a 35 year old married woman. I was told as early as 19 Iwould possibly be able to get pregnant. However, 2.5 years ago I was told that I was not sterile and may just have a little more difficulty in the area. I currently suffer with the following conditions; Endometriosis, Hyshimotos thyroiditis, and Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. Any one of the these should have made me sterile but neither has. I recently found out that after 2 years of being off of birth control the endometriosis has progressed to the worst stage, 4. I have made the tough decision to have a hysterectoomy later this year to prevent endometrium cancer. This has not been an easy journey but it is the one I have been given. I have always wanted a house full of children. My husband has 4 of his own and we are currently raising one we is not either one of ours. This is my blessing in the mist of all this heartache. I know God has not forgotten about me, I have made many many mistakes in my life to deserve such a punishment, I know He has a reason for not allowing every woman to get pregnant or have a child of their own, but it doesn't make this cross any easier to bare. Woman like us are constantly in my prayers. May God continue to bless through our hardships and may we learn to accept our blessings however they come.

Anonymous said...

Please Lord let me have our baby from my womb, aside from my adopted I still want a baby. Both of us are 45 now and it's more difficult for us to have a baby now that we are older.

AnjaNicole said...

Hi my name is Anja. I can so relate to your story. I am 28 years old and we strarted trying to conceive in 2010. When we first started talking about trying we thought it would take a while. However the very next month I was pregnant! I was so happy and delighted. But eight weeks later when we went for our first ultrasound we found out that we had a miscarriage - a blighted ovum to be exact. We were devastated. I had to have a DNC. But as you said the statistics were in our favor for the next one so we tried again and again and again. So in total I have had four miscarriages. One year exactly from the date of my DNC. I had to have a myomectomy to remove a fibroid because my doctor thought it may have been causing my miscarriages. I had my surgery last year August 2011 and we have benn trying to have a baby again since the beginning of 2012 and nothing has happened. And everything you mentioned in terms of the feelings you went through I go through daily. I know how it feels to feel guilty for questiong God and his timing. I know how it feels to ask when. I know how it feels to feel forsaken or worse forgotten. And this is how I stumbled upon your site. I did not know how to explain it in words but its like you were inside my head and heart and articulated clearly what i was thinking and feeling. Some days are rougher than others but as you say the sun still rises and sets. I ask for prayers when I am unable to pray myself, I ask for strength when the burden is to heavy for me to carry. Its not that you dont have faith in God but its harder to let go and let God then it sounds. Please pray for me.

Anonymous said...

It's very disappointing that inspite of all this situation that we are going through there are so many people who can't understand what we feel. They can easily say something about us who has no baby yet. They don't even now what we feel everyday, everytime that one of our friends is pregnant again. I feel so sorry to my self but I know and I do believe that there is God who will never leave us alone. And with the support of our family it makes us stronger. I hope and I pray for all the couples who wanted to have a baby that one day God will give us our own baby.

Anonymous said...

May god bless all of you! I am 44 years old and have struggled with infertility for the last 10 years. We had also tried iui, shots, charting, and applied for foster/adoption. Anything that we could do to make things happen. We did get pregnant twice but the pregnancys ended in early miscarriage. I began to pray that god would help me to release the desire to have a baby, if it wasn't his will. but the desire continued to be there. After 4 years of trying to conceive and a year and a half of waiting to adopt. I dropped to my knees and cried out to god. I finally gave over the control and allowed for his will in my life no matter what. In gods perfect timing, We were called to come pick up our baby boy 2 weeks later. We then got a call, a year later, from a beloved friend who was a social worker who let us know she needed a placement for a sibling set ( a 4 year old boy and a 3 month old girl) things were not supposed to happen this way but somehow everything worked out and we were now proud parents of 3 beautiful children. We began to share our story everywhere ... praising god for all he had given us when we got our final phone call. Would we be willing to take a 6 year old little girl who had been sexually and physically abused? Our answer was a resounding yes! Today our house is full and I couldn't feel more blessed. 1 year ago we found out that I was pregnant and i gave birth to a healthy baby boy. God hears our prayers ... don't give up praying and remember there is power when we fall to our knees!

Christina Ferguson said...

I pray all of Gods blessings over you in this. By the Blood of Jesus Christ you can have what God has promised to you. I too have been in this situation. I have had 3 miscarriages since December and 9 in the past 5 years. My husband is so frustrated watching my highs and lows because of this that he does not want to try anymore. But I know in faith believing that in Gods time we will have another baby.

Anonymous said...

Kelyn from Singapore said...
Thank you for sharing your heart, I was looking through for prayers to conceive. Have been trying for 3 years, i can relate to those disappointment and frustration. Every month i will tell God that i will still love Him & trust Him.

I have missed my period for 3 days, i did a home test kit last night but the result is negative. I did not give up instead i continue to believe and confess that my womb is blessed. It will bare fruit in His time!

WaitingforCheyanne said...

I thank God for finding this blog. I located it by searching for verses to conceive. I'm fasting with a gf who's been trying for 1 year (I've been trying for 6 months) because we were truly beginning to lose ourselves in our quest to be with child. We've been emotional to the point that everyone around us is a target and if we're not screaming we're crying. This blog is a testimony that I needed to hear and I have also directed my girlfriend here. It's a relief to know that there are Christian woman experiencing the same thing that we are going through, and leaning on the Lord the same way we have chosen to.

Anonymous said...

hello friends...me and my wife are trying for a baby since a year...we have been married for 5 years but started trying for a baby since the past year...god made us happy although for a short while as my wife conceived but she had a miscarriage..we were heartbroken..we both have a lot of faith in the almighty..i am sure he will bless us and all the other couples with a healthy baby...friends please pray for us..thank u

Sophia said...

Thank you for this post. God is on his throne and he still cares about everyone of us and as Jeremiah 29:11 says - For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord plans to bless and prosper us and to give us hope and a future. I live and breathe that verse daily. Like many of you I have been married and trying for 3 years now with 3 miscarriages and have lost hope but regained it in the process and I know we will have healthy babies very soon. This is a test that I am prepared to pass in the end, the whole process has grown my faith in God and so He is my only specialist right now. God bless you all with happy healthy babies.

Anonymous said...

Hey everyone. We have been married for 6 years and I can relate to your stories and frustrations. Getting your monthlies especially after the few days before you get preggos symptoms can really kill you inside. My husband is stood man and he loves God so much. I've never had a miscarriage. I backslided a couple of times after I noticed hat time is moving and everyone was getting preggos. I found this blog after searching for prayers to conceive because I still believe there is a miracle working God up there in heaven and His timing is perfect. But it's jus that knowing you are on the waiting list is really hard and painful especially when the period comes. Let's remember to pray for each other ladies and gentlemen. Nothing is too hard for God because if he did it for Sarah what more of us. We are the Hannah's of this generation. Let's believe He will do it and also die to the flesh (fast). Starting this coming Monday am taking on a fast and prayer for 3 days. This must be my year to hold a baby in my arms. My friends have done it, my sisters have babies and often I ask why me?
As a Christian woman when the desire and urge to have a baby comes it feels like nothing is happening and God does favors to other people. You read about prostitutes queuing for abortions, and people strangling a recently born baby and you wonder what it is you are doing wrong. You become angry and bitter. But I am here to encourage you brethren let's stand together and fight the devil.
I am not as strong as I sound but am looking for people who want to stand together and pray this miracle out. Thank you

Anonymous said...

My husband and I have been TTC for 16 months now. Every month has been a complete heart break for me. We are almost 29 years old. I have a step child. But I would love to have a child of my own. It's very hard to see and hear of other people getting pregnant and I am struggling. Its very depressing. I'm losing hope, but still praying.

Chrisnie Koekemoer said...

I am in the same boat.... But today God has made thing very clear to me and I will trust in Him.... It is not about us, having not enough faith and how big this problem in our lives are, but how Big our Almighty God is! He is in control and I will trust in Him to bless us all with the biggest gift of life! Thank you Father!

Chrisnie Koekemoer said...

I am in the same boat.... But today God has made thing very clear to me and I will trust in Him.... It is not about us, having not enough faith and how big this problem in our lives are, but how Big our Almighty God is! He is in control and I will trust in Him to bless us all with the biggest gift of life! Thank you Father!

Anonymous said...

Hi Everyone,
After reading this Blog, I dont feel alone in this Journery. I have been trying to conceive for a year and half but havent been sucessful yet. I know all of you have had a tough time for many years. But after reading all your experience and testimonies. I know I can make it with Jesus. I have faith and I know I will be blessed. Please keep me in your prayes as I will too. God belss all of you. And always remember Jesus knows best.

Candace Van Wade said...

I too have felt alone in this journey. My husband and I haven't been trying as long as you have, only a year and a half, but a year and a half is a long time when your heart aches for a child.

My little sister was born when I was 15, I helped my parents take care of her, woke up in the middle of the night to console her, I was in love. It was then I knew that God had placed me on this earth, if to do nothing else, to be a mother. I am now 4 days from turning 28 and the fire that burns in my heart rages on.

I have also gone through the angry stage, where you see pregnant women in the store who you feel don't deserve to be pregnant because they already have 4 kids with them, running around with dirt on their face and mismatched clothes...running a muck in the grocery store. In those moments I have to ask God for forgiveness and to help me see the miracle of life, no matter the parenting style.

We pray fervently for God to bless us with children and put our trust in Him that he will give us the desires of our hearts!

I am currently on my 3rd round of Clomid and my Dr. said if this doesn't work she will refer me to a fertility specialist. I'm scared that it's come to that...being referred to a specialist, my mom had 3 kids, my grammy had 5, my husband's mother had 3 kids and his dad has 6...just don't see what the deal is! We have both been tested and we are both fine and healthy. The thing I keep going back to is that God is in control and though I don't understand it, he will open doors (or my cervix- haha) in his perfect timing!

I will be praying for all you ladies and know that God is in control!

Anonymous said...

I been married for 6 years. Try to conceive naturally but can't. I also have mental disorder schizophrenia and taking medication. Can someone tell me should I go for IVF and conceive?

Anonymous said...

My husband and I have been married for 13 yrs, and for over 10 of it we have been TTC. In 2010 I found out I had uterine cancer, I took a chemo pill that only works for 30% of people, it worked for me and I knew GOD healed me! I've had 5 surgeries since Aug. 2010 and after one of the last ones I was told by the dr that my cancer was back, I knew what that meant- hysterectomy. I was devastated. I prayed GOD would take away the desire to have children from me and my husband if it was not his will, but we both still had this overwhelming desire to have a child. 1 week later the dr called me to confirm the results of the surgery, but said she was mistaken, the cancer wasn't back it just looked like it ...that I was still cancer free...which meant no hysterectomy! I cried and thanked GOD over and over again, knowing that I did not go thru all of this for nothing, that in his timing he would bless us with a child of our own and my tests would be become my testimony! I am still believing that today! I pray for each of you, I know how it feels to go month after month, year after year praying each day for a child! I'm giving GOD all of me, because without him I have nothing and I know with him I have everything and everything is possible with him! Praise the Lord! God bless each of you!

Anonymous said...

I have been married to my husband for almost 5 yrs now and trying since we got married. Tried 4 cycles of clomid / iui and 2 cycles of ivf. At this point I have nobody to trust except God. I cry, cry and cry in front of God begging him to bless me with a baby.

I know He would do it at the right time .... but I have waited too long. I hope He will open his eyes for me to have baby.