Who turned off the AC?....and tagged

I finished up the last of my clomid pills on Saturday. Let's just say, even with the estrogen suppositories, the hot flashes have been frequent. I've woken more times than I care to, sticky and clammy of sweat, feeling the need to rip every shred of clothing from my body. After the moment passes, I feel back to my old self, and slowly dread the time until the next big one. The mood swings are pretty bad too! But, I can deal with those better than the hot flashes! K would rather I have the hot flashes, I'm sure, since he's referred to me as "evil" the past few days. It's the hormones people!!!

I've been tagged by Kelly over at the Quest for Baby Agosti. The rules are simple: Link to the person who tagged you, list the rules in your blog, Share six non-important quirks about yourself, Tag at least 3 people, leave those you tagged a comment so they can play too.

1. When I was 6, I once tried to make income selling saltines in our driveway. You know, some kids sell lemonade or cupcakes. Yeah, well, I loved crackers (and still do) and I couldn't see why anyone wouldn't want to stop in and buy some. I can still remember one truck teasing me that they were going to pull in. The couple was older and they were laughing hysterically. I was so mad at the time, but now I get it. I am pleased to know that I could have brought so much humor to those folks on this day.

2. I once ran up our family's phone bill by calling the Papa Smurf hot line! I loved the Smurfs cartoon! I just wanted to hear Papa Smurf tell me a story over the phone. I didn't know it was $2.99/minute? I think I ran up the bill $150 and I was grounded from ever calling in anywhere like that, ever again.

3. I am notorious to never closing things. I leave drawers, doors, bags, etc. open. Actually, I half heartily push them close, but I never close drawers completely! My husband says that I subconsciously know that he is coming behind me to shut them all. I honestly, don't even realize I am doing it!

4. Like #3, I almost always never zip my pants. My friends say it's because I button first, but I always seem to forget to zip my pants! Does anyone see a pattern here?

5. I love to take naps on Sunday's. Sometimes, I think that's what gets me through my weeks. K and I go to church, eat lunch, and nap until time to go back to church. I just love this time, and I feel so refreshed and relaxed when I wake up.

6. I once set my bed on fire by playing with matches UNDER the bed. I had finally figured out how to strike a lighter (and I was practicing!). Fortunately, my dad was able to drag the mattress outside before it caused any severe damage to our house!

My parents use to tell me, "When you grow up, I hope you have 10 kids just like yourself!" Awe, the irony in those words. I would love to have 10 kids, but from my own experience, I know I must: block all pay-calls from our land line, hide all lighters or matches, keep a vast supply of saltines, and get the drawer/door closing under control (I don't know if K could handle two or more of me).

I tag Sadie and Tyson, Jen, and Rebecca (if she feels up to it :).

Here we go...

I had to go see my new doc, Dr. R, this a.m. for a pelvic exam before we can begin the clomid. I forgot to shave my legs! How embarrassing! (And, let me tell you, I haven't shaved in at least a week! It's the winter-I don't shave every day!!! After this experience, however, I may start shaving every day!) The good news is that Dr. R didn't even notice, or if he did, he didn't say anything.

In case you have forgotten, I just love my new doc. He is so witty and comical. Today, I asked him about the hot flashes that I've been having since doing the injectible ovulation drugs. I was told that I have OCD. Dr. R kind of chuckled and said that it wasn't meant to be derogatory, so I said "Thank you..." and sort of laughed. He just said that I was so "in tune" to my body, that I had obviously read "the book." I think this could of rubbed some patients the wrong way, but I thought it was funny. I've always just assumed I've had OCD, so now I know!

Anyway, I am going to be taking 5 days of 100mg of Clomid. Dr. R usually prescribes it days 5-9. I took clomid for one month at my last dr's office, except days 3-7. So, Dr. R wants me to do it this month days 4-8. He also gave me a complementary estrogen suppositories sample pack. (He really is trying to save me some $). This is new to me. I've had progesterone suppositories before, but not estrogen.

So, ready or not, here we go....who am I kidding? Of course we are ready!!!

Frustrations...

Wouldn't you know that when I actually want that old-hag Aunt Flo to show up so I can begin the Clomid this cycle, she would be difficult and take her sweet time. I should of started yesterday. I've been so regular the past 10 years, that I can tell you before or after lunch when she is going to show. She is late...a whole day late!!! So, being the pregnancy test addict that I am, I took a test, which was negative...of course it was negative. It's been negative for the last 66 cycles (with the exception of 2 lost pregnancies). So, come on AF! Rear your ugly head so I can get this show on the road! (Not to mention I am overly hormonal, short tempered, and emotional! I think I am driving my wonderful husband insane!)

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Update: She's here! She's here! She's here! On to the Super C (clomid) we move this cycle.

Book

This is the book I am reading. It has been really good so far, and I am hoping to finish it this week. It isn't a prescription to get pregnant--but it has some pretty darn useful coping skills inside that can be used for just about any unwanted circumstance. This is what the back cover says:

Infertility is a heartbreaking condition that affects nine million American couples each year. It causes tremendous stress, it can trigger debilitating sadness and depression, and it can tear a marriage to shreds. In Conquering Infertility, Harvard psychologist Alice Domar--whom Vogue calls the "Fertility Goddess"--provides infertile couples with what they need most: stress relief, support, and hope. Using the innovative mind/body techniques she has perfected at her clinic, Domar helps infertile women not only regain control over their lives but also boost their chances of becoming pregnant. With Alice Domar's renowned program, women learn how to cope with infertility in a much more positive way and to carve a path toward a rich, full, happy life.

Benefit from wise, comforting words on:

• Sustaining a Career during Infertility
• Coping when friends and family members become pregnant
• Navigating the medical maze
• Other options when treatment fails.

My responses through out the entire book thus far has been:

"Wow, I thought I was the only one who felt this way."

"I'm not as crazy as I thought I was."

"What I am feeling is perfectly normal."

Just wanted to share the title if anyone was interested.

Dr. Domar sums it up best when she says: "You will be happy again. Life will become joyful again. And somehow, some way if you want to become a parent, you will."

Blah, blah, blah...

Nothing really important to say especially on the infertility front.

I am officially in the 2ww (almost 1ww now) and I am trying not to obsess about whether this cycle is successful or not. I've been reading a really good book on infertility that has brought a lot of things into prospective for me. I am going to post about it when I am finished with the title and my thoughts after reading it. I'm a little over half way finished with it now.

My current goal is trying to live in the "now" rather than the future. Lately, anytime thoughts of tomorrow, the next day, or next week, etc. creep into my mind, I stop and try to be mindful of my current "now." It has really helped me feel better emotionally, and I can tell ya, my husband has appreciated that. Now, if only I can have this same mindful mindset if/when AF arrives next week.

Hope everyone is having a great week!

Thankful Thursday...

I am thankful for a NEW YEAR, which brings new, restored hope.

I am thankful for the recent rain NC has received.

I am thankful to have found a new doctor's office. I am thankful to feel as if as a patient, I am finally in good hands.

I am thankful for new blogging friends who can become prayer partners.

I am thankful that my Christmas present from K (massage package) made me feel physically and emotionally better. I am thankful that my massage therapist is a Christian and for the gift God has given her in her hands.

I am thankful that I was able to sleep soundly the past two nights.

I am thankful for my husband, who I love more every day.

Predictions for 2008

I got this off of an inspirational email group I subscribe to. It was too awesome not to repost.

TOP TEN PREDICTIONS FOR 2008

1. The Bible will still have all the answers.
2. Prayer will still work.
3. The Holy Spirit will still move.
4. God will still inhabit the praises of His people.
5. There will still be God-anointed preaching.
6. There will still be singing of praise to God.
7. God will still pour out blessings upon His people.
8. There will still be room at the Cross.
9. Jesus will still love you.
10. Jesus will still save the lost.
---DaRhonda Roberts